always.

Sunday, September 30, 2007

sometimes solution aren't so simple.

i dont't knw what it take to get the expected wants in any means.
if this is the way things can be done,
i would rather just play catching and hide away.
sometimes it would be better to just sit at a corner,
crying out to yourself;
thn to scream it out to let the whole world knw.
to be what it is like, in this manner in this way,
i would rather take a gun and shoot myself dead.
if shooting myself would help from not seeing the umpteens wars,
i don't mind reloading the gun over&over again to kill myself dead.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

there're many things left to remind me;

monday had swimming trng in sch,
it had been quite some time since i swam.
not really tht bad, it's half of what i normally need to swim.
i think in a while time more,
i have to get back to WS trng alr.
IVP in 3mths time, not say long not say short.
i don't wna pull my team down, so yeah train.

ytd instead of rugby trng,
the whole touch rug girls went to do the high element did.
it's so much more tiring thn rugby trng,
i cling so long onto those strings,
my fingers are so painful after the whole activity.
but okay la, it's only the 2nd element tht's scary.
other's are quite alright.

just got entertained by magic tricks from xiang's friend.
super cooool la, i feeel like learning & trick ppl! lol.

oh yes, and my chatlog is uploaded in daiyu's blog agn.
this time i wonder how long it gna take to disappear. /:

Sunday, September 23, 2007

gimmme more.

after 4mths, i finally get to meet thm.
had our dinnner at ajisen,
chattted&laughed our nights offf.
it has never beeen so relaxing,
they were the ones who make my working time exciting.
they were the ones who make my o'lvls hols worthwhile.
i miss alex, i miss james.
alex is having his promos,
james is working at the airport's outlet. ):

and wenxing didn't come bcus he say he got some family dinner.
but sometimes, some people just ain't deserve it.
excuses time after time, whether to believe or not;
it's hard to make a choice. /:

& yes, i dread gng to sch tml.
science module, it's gna be monday blue.
i'm just looking forward to the swim trng after sch. blahhh

merry go round.

this is the vry first NTL match tht we won.
& after so long, tht we actually have enough subs.
today we had 6subs, & everybody have more motivation after the first try.
if other matches can be like this, it'll definitely be better.
more motivation & confidence,
today's match is just excellence.
i'm really proud of those who score tries,
& those who run their ass off today. <3

it was simpang after NTL with ex classmates.
knw a few new more ppl; han,mat,jerome.
others tht were there was joel,dy,sherman,ifa&shrek.
& as usual i'm the joke of the day, being the kumgong.
whn dy's is intro-ing me to his friend,
he've to always emphasize tht i'm a kumgong.
& tell thm those stupid things i did in class/chalet.
i'm sure joel & the gang will love my company,
bcus they won't get shoot and they've entertainment. (:

the cough&flu just sucks, make me feel so lethargic.
thou today it's a sat, i gna slp early.
no more energy to stay up for my dramas,
& my face is burned! zzzzz.

Friday, September 21, 2007

walk in the rain & smile till it aches.

currently in nab's class, slacking & waiting for time to pass.
so tht we won't be too early at Al azhar ltr.
since they only can break fast at 7.

& i'm bring so entertained by helmi's facial's expression.
his always making stupid actions & faces at the wrong time.

suddenly i can't wait for NTL tml,
& i hope there would be more subs tml.
not just 1 sub like what we normally have. (:

Thursday, September 20, 2007

i've no desire to see thru my eyes anymore.

didn't go school today, was sick so rest at home.
& thn went sch for rugby trng.
yes, sick & still go for trng.
i don't knw why, but tht's what keep me driving to go sch.
so yeah, played matches among the teams,
good defence and attacks, a lot of improvement really.

thanks xiang for his 2 packets of strepsils,
if not i would have to cough my way thru out the trng.
i need strepsils badly now,
RJ exchange for strepsils?
i bet xiang would love this exchange,
since his always so lazy! :D

finally it's friday tml, it means weekends & rest!

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

deep & meaningless.

3rd day of sch, seriously i find no motivation to go sch.
classmates are alright,
but just not as hyperning as my SEMS1 W34A.
i must state clearly SEMS1, bcus i'm still in the same class.

well, apparently there're some crazy ppl in my class.
& some ah bengs. zzzz.
but luckily they're not those typical ah bengs.

the motivation for me to come sch, is actually those breaks.
whn i get to see all my exclassmates,
at the coffeeshop to slack&gossip&complain abt class.
oh, and also rugby trngs! :D

but now i'm liking wed, cus i got nice team mates.

ltr i''ll be gng Al alzhar for dinner.
friday will be simpang.
i can't wait for tht, cus i wna eat the rotijohn! :D

okay, i need to discuss for ppt.
good news is, i got 3 ppt for enterprise alr!
edit&upload. tata!

Monday, September 17, 2007

I don't know why I miss you so much,
I don't know why I still feel your touch.
but you left me feeling high and dry,
with nothing but the question why.

i guess you had another direction,
& leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

if you call me today, i'll say that I'm fine.
but I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice,
it's just a lie.
you knew what you had,
yet you still walked away leaving me in this mess.
it is deep and meaningless.

you knew what you were doing to me,
but i guess i was just too blind to see.
well you hit where it hurt&you fooled me so bad.
but I'd do it again to relive what we had.

there are many things left to remind me,
of something that I just can't leave behind me.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

the thought of hating to lose something.

tml is the start of sch, at first i'm excited abt it.
bcus i can get to see my ex-classmates.
hanging around in coffee shop during 2nd break,
gng home tgt after sch.

but thn well, i'm stuck in the same class,
which bring back so much memories.
& after checking yandao.com abt my new classmates,
i dread gng to sch alr la!
hopefully they don't appear like how they appear in yandao. /:

do you knw how i feel, or even care?

rahhhhh, i can't watch RWC even on youtube now!
the videos had been banned,
bcus of some RWC copryrighted thingy. SHIT!

& 樱野3加1 is such a addictive show!
time check: 3.45am.
i gna chiong finish all those 7ep tht is currently loaded,
2 more ep to go :D

yes, now tht i'm in a better mood.
let's talk abt the NTL.
NTL match today was TIRING!
no subs AT ALL for a 40mins game,
not bad a physical trng uh.
& it's always the same old ppl coming for matches,
people are just abusing the trust&faith in thm. /:

Saturday, September 15, 2007

i've tried everything tht i could.
actions seriously speaks louder thn word thou,
don't say something whn you don't mean what you say.
tht way it'll only hurt one more.

you turn my world upside down,
i gave you my trust but you abuse it.
what do you wnt exactly from me?
to toy around & thn just dump me aside?
why good things always end is a sad way for me?

i agree with what zarifah say,
it's the pain of finding the right someone.
maybe it's not now, & it's later.

never meant; what else?

finally had a taste of what simpang's food is like.
& as usual, i'm always being the KUMGONG.
i'm sure like daiyu&joel will like seeing tht phrase.
bought a new dress for only 10bucks at bugis!
gna go down on sunday,
to buy some more clothes & bag. :D

kylie won't be coming for NTL tml,
her finger was swollen from ytd trng.
bcus apparently, the ball knock her hard on the knuckles.
so yeah, one less sub for tml match.
anw since whn we've enough sub for a match. /:

like the sun above, we're now fading apart.
i had a bad dream ytd.
& i hope like what ppl say,
tht dreams always turn out the oppposite is true.
i wish to think no more,
but sometimes is just suddenly pop up in my head.
save me from my misery will you?

Thursday, September 13, 2007

a beautiful array of remembrance.

today we did a lot of push ups as penalty for drop balls.
we did a few new drills,
it was another fruitful trng!
never to forget the camwhoring session at the toilet
with denise before trng starts :D

& we had dinner at mac,
look at the amount of chilli sauce we used.
it's just for a filet-o-fish&double cheese burger.
me&zarifah really like chilli, 11 packets knw. hah!

tml will be out to peni,
to get shrek&daiyu's bag.
thn daiyu will bring us to simpang,
to meet xiang for dinner.

i can't wait for sunday to come,
thn i can meet my ex colleague.
it's been like 4 mths since i last saw thm? ):

a thousand regrets do not cancel one debt.

sometimes i just wonder, why there can be so many different kind of people.
they pretend to be so nice infront of you,
telling you not to do this&that bcus it's for your own good.
but i really doubt if they really mean well for me.
someone tell me how to differentiate who is good & who is bad. /:

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

the memory of happiness makes misery woeful.

those are pics from ytd.
& rugby trng today is fruitful.
a short&sweet update :D

Monday, September 10, 2007

courage don't desert me now.

it's busy checking out classes of friends.
the moment i'm online, many msn windows pop out.
so yeah, i'm still stuck at w34a.
what's the point of having the same class, same environment,
when everybody in the class is gone?
it means nothing, & it bring back more painful memories.
staring into blanks, giving blur faces again.

but lucky, i've sherman, xiang, amin, elaine & sw in the same lvl as me.
i envy those ppl who've ppl in their class tht they knw,
i alr knw so many ppl alr but yet i've no one i knw in my class!
blahhhh, nvm.
i shall be positive & look forward to the new classmates. zzzz /:

worked as a lifeguard for some mediacorp filming thing.
4 hrs, 40bucks. nice money eh?
& i get to help thm with some underwater shoot. (:

town-ed with zarifah&kylie, got my shades.
i'm officaly broke now, until i get my 40bucks.
i think i gna find myself a job whn NTL is over.
work on the weekends shld be quite manageable.

gna go watch my taiwan series on tudou.com now.
trng tml, YAY! <3

Sunday, September 09, 2007

in many different keys.

binkiat's fault! his random HEY CHAIRMAN online,
make me think so much abt 4e3 suddenly.
i thought i've grown out of it,
not upset over the graduation.
but thn i realise the new bunch of friends i made in poly,
the environment, the things i've learnt,
is nothing compared to the 2yrs i had with my classmates.

2yrs can be short/long,
depends on the way you see it.
in a class of 37 for 2 yrs,
doesn't the memories make you tear at times?

i miss so much so much stuffs in 4e3.
times when we make teachers cry.
times when we make teachers giving up on us.
times when we make teachers feel their effort pay off.
times when we make i get to control the class.
times when i bicker with the guys.
times when we make of the teachers.
times when we skip class tgt.
times when we study hard tgt.
times when we smuggle food back to class.
times when we order ppl to be waiter/waitress of the day.
times when we secretly bring phone/mp3 to class.
so many so many more stuff i miss.
it's too much to be listed down.

like what bk's nick is, life goes on.
thou the fact tht there'll be things tht we can't let go&forget,
we have to move on with life.

recently i just saw mrs goh at cwp.
she make me realised how much things had change.
i miss her pretty lot thou,
teaching me maths since sec1.
thou she always likes to shout at us,
telling tht we'll go no where.
but i knw she don't mean what she say,
& she said all tht for our welfare.

didn't go back to sch for teacher's day celebration,
bcus she aren't there.
she is having her maternity leave,
& will only be back in sch at late sept.
some teachers just didn't benefit me at all.
all they do is scolding without sense.
teaching stuffs tht are not related.
somehow for some sub,
i think i survive on my own.

it's been almost half a yr since i see the whole class as a WHOLE. ):

old photos, but it do bring back lots of memories. <3

it feels as if it's ytd.

i wna watch RWC'07!
but i don't have cable at home. ):

Saturday, September 08, 2007

will you tell me you love me.

so yeah, another sat for NTL.
this time things improved a bit more.
it's the first time i got so near to the try line,
& my first time to even try scoring.
if only i could have dive one sec earlier.
but nvm, i'll try diving faster the nxt time :D

at times i think we shouldn't just preach abt ppl's mistake,
& don't reflect upon our own mistakes.
it's okay to tell people what went wrong,
but repeating it over&over again doesn't help in any way.
it's better to save the time,
& just think of how much more you can improve yourself.

i'm one who get paranoid over small things easily.
would you end this sorrow&pain?
can you just tell me straight in my face what you're thinking?
i don't expect much from you,
i just hope things would turn out right.
i miss you /: